Happiness is a direction. The way we should all be heading. Join the crowd! You're invited! I realized I was not a wise man when I tried to educate an old soul about success. Expressed my belief in strong work ethic to build an empire! To sacrifice and learn while others sleep so that I could live comfortable down the road.
"what if you die tomorow", said the old soul.
"Good point", I replied.
Striving to find success in work is the first step. Eventually, it is about striving to be happy. To find that direction and not veer off.
No rant... because it is that simple. I'm thankful for everyone that has walked on my path with me at one time or another. Cheers to you my friends! Cheers to you....
12.01.2012
2.01.2012
Where is my mind
Envying people who can wing it right now. Just having one of those awkward moments where you realize the things you are chasing mean nothing. What the hell happened to me. I am so caught up with myself lately. I forget how important those connections to other people are. I wish I didn't worry so much about the little things. Little things that most of us are guilty of making into big things.
Success is important to me. I have made a couple steps closer. Everytime I do I realize how much more complicated success actually is to achieve. There is a very exact balance that needs to be achieved. A lot of pillars there to set the foundation. I never was good at juggling!
I didn't realize how strong that first law of attraction was between people and places I have been that kept me grounded. They are vital points on my road map. Still trying to connect the dots and figure out what it all is. They are chaotic and confusing with no real explanation, I feel this irrestible force to gravitate towards those points once visited only to veer off again in another direction to keep working on the puzzle.
How beautiful a place it would be to just wing it again. Nothing but a night full of endless possibilities with people who were just there to experience it with you. You only meet those people so many times in life. The ones who know the real you. The ones who help lay that foundation. It's weird how the times when I wasn't thinking about everything was when the best building blocks were set.
Sitting here thinking about my life... What an amazingly confusing experience. As confusing as it all is I am thankful for the challenge. I am not ready to forgive myself for all the misguided, stupid, ignorant choices I have made - but I am excited about learning from them. I think that is what makes things so great to experience. I just hope when the laws of attraction bring me back to those highly respected points of interest I can share my experiences and hear from others about their's.
My conclusion from this rambling is that I see a pilgrimage in my near future. I think I need to reconnect some dots. Seriously - Where is my mind! This is starting to go nowhere so I think I will end with a joke.
"A blonde calls her husband at work one day and asks him, "Can you help me when you get home?"
"Sure," he replies. "What's the problem?"
"Well, I started a really hard puzzle and I can't even find the edge pieces."
"Look on the box," he said. "There's always a picture of what the puzzle is."
"It's a big rooster," she said.
The husband arrives home and tells his blonde wife, "Okay, put the corn flakes back in the box."
Success is important to me. I have made a couple steps closer. Everytime I do I realize how much more complicated success actually is to achieve. There is a very exact balance that needs to be achieved. A lot of pillars there to set the foundation. I never was good at juggling!
I didn't realize how strong that first law of attraction was between people and places I have been that kept me grounded. They are vital points on my road map. Still trying to connect the dots and figure out what it all is. They are chaotic and confusing with no real explanation, I feel this irrestible force to gravitate towards those points once visited only to veer off again in another direction to keep working on the puzzle.
How beautiful a place it would be to just wing it again. Nothing but a night full of endless possibilities with people who were just there to experience it with you. You only meet those people so many times in life. The ones who know the real you. The ones who help lay that foundation. It's weird how the times when I wasn't thinking about everything was when the best building blocks were set.
Sitting here thinking about my life... What an amazingly confusing experience. As confusing as it all is I am thankful for the challenge. I am not ready to forgive myself for all the misguided, stupid, ignorant choices I have made - but I am excited about learning from them. I think that is what makes things so great to experience. I just hope when the laws of attraction bring me back to those highly respected points of interest I can share my experiences and hear from others about their's.
My conclusion from this rambling is that I see a pilgrimage in my near future. I think I need to reconnect some dots. Seriously - Where is my mind! This is starting to go nowhere so I think I will end with a joke.
"A blonde calls her husband at work one day and asks him, "Can you help me when you get home?"
"Sure," he replies. "What's the problem?"
"Well, I started a really hard puzzle and I can't even find the edge pieces."
"Look on the box," he said. "There's always a picture of what the puzzle is."
"It's a big rooster," she said.
The husband arrives home and tells his blonde wife, "Okay, put the corn flakes back in the box."
9.17.2011
One of those nights
It's just one of those nights. Looking for some kind of creative expression. Haven't been able to find it yet so I found myself back here staring at the screen; mind wandering.
I am starting to realize that a sober life brings a lot of questions. You start over analyzing everything. I got upset this morning and tore my house apart because I couldn't find my favorite hat. Found it this evening when I calmed down. Drove around for a few hours wondering how the hell I got mad about losing my hat. I was waiting for someone to set me off too. Definitely questioned if I had an anger problem.
I think I have been upset with a few things in my life and I tend to bottle it all up and keep it inside. I never really put so much thought into some of my relationships with people. It seems like every one of them is under a microscope lately. Every relationship serves a purpose and it is the purpose that I having been trying to understand. Understanding that some relationships change so much is exhausting to think about sometimes. It has been hard to find an escape in this sober life of mine lately.
Hard to believe you can live in the city and be so connected but feel like such an outsider at the same time. I welcome ignorant bliss as much as possible but it's hard just to stand in the silence and just take a deep breath and take it all in.
A blank page in the sketchbook and a blank canvas on the easel and I am searching for something to put there. Just can't find the passion tonight.
I am starting to realize that a sober life brings a lot of questions. You start over analyzing everything. I got upset this morning and tore my house apart because I couldn't find my favorite hat. Found it this evening when I calmed down. Drove around for a few hours wondering how the hell I got mad about losing my hat. I was waiting for someone to set me off too. Definitely questioned if I had an anger problem.
I think I have been upset with a few things in my life and I tend to bottle it all up and keep it inside. I never really put so much thought into some of my relationships with people. It seems like every one of them is under a microscope lately. Every relationship serves a purpose and it is the purpose that I having been trying to understand. Understanding that some relationships change so much is exhausting to think about sometimes. It has been hard to find an escape in this sober life of mine lately.
Hard to believe you can live in the city and be so connected but feel like such an outsider at the same time. I welcome ignorant bliss as much as possible but it's hard just to stand in the silence and just take a deep breath and take it all in.
A blank page in the sketchbook and a blank canvas on the easel and I am searching for something to put there. Just can't find the passion tonight.
8.15.2011
6.16.2011
6.06.2011
NNNATURE!
NATURE! (said in Will Ferrell's voice)
some neat photos I took a number of years ago with my old olympus camera
4.04.2011
Oh Hi, Mark..
I hope everyone enjoys.. more photos and stories to come.
My Bachelors of Fine Art Senior Solo Exhibition is now up so the long nights of painting and stressing are finally over. Be back soon!
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